a quick reflection

what i gleaned from this evening:

the stories attached to sensation aren’t necessary. even if they are in some way gratifying. like any habit. identifying with the painstory is one of my favorites. quite horrific if i fixate.

yesterday i was wound up in them. processing overtime. it was almost debilitating. i wanted to quit. probably more painful than it needed to be.

tonight i encountered some sensation of discomfort but i noticed nothing was attached.

a reframe i remind myself of again and again: sensation is information. everything is. this way or that?

it can be as simple as a game of hot and cold. there’s much less pressure that way. at least, less of the pressure that takes me out of where i am.

just noticing changed the experience again.

i become who i am in each moment by realizing where desire is asking for attention.

there’s nothing else, really.