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I love the frenetic energy of it all, I want the poem to be my new mantra so I can manifest many of the same things into my own universe. Wonderful & strange. As all the best things are.

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👀 or write your own ode to desire! though i would be honored to have my words taken as mantra. thank you Ryan for loving the strange and wonderful 🍭

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Write my own? Ooh, you're really laying down the gauntlet there. And I accept!! En garde!

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yes yes yessssss!!!! hissing seductively

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This is so true: “One thing about me is that I am a different woman every day. You probably are, too.” For me, sometimes it’s more like every hour!

I can really relate to the art and money balance… when you love the business side too, sometimes the business side starts thinking she’s more important than the artist. In my life it’s always funny when they duke it out, cause the artist just goes on strike, like “BAM! Whatcha gonna sell now, bitch?!”

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ha! you're so right. it's often like the whole cast of characters is lined up at the edge of the stage just waiting for the opportunity to come into the spotlight. Actually after I wrote this i noticed a lot of my parts come in twos!

...which is now even more interesting to think about in relation to the artist/business thing. I wanna know how they can become bffs. lol your artist on strike sounds hilarious 😜😝

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Real whores are of the highest intelligence, spiritual or otherwise

Jesus didn't hang out with Mary Magdalene for nothing

"Feeling alone when you're all alone

Flesh and blood by the telephone

Pick up the receiver, I'll make you a believer"

For our times

https://youtu.be/cNd4eocq2K0?si=z8ryMciy3quN3WfH

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you’re my kinda people 💫💥 and thanks for the song gosh I haven’t heard this in ages. whole new meaning!

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I heard that very long ago in Greece sacred prostitutes were held in higher regard than commonplace married women, and were granted more rights such as being allowed to buy land. I believe it was detailed in the book “Love For Sale” truly intriguing!

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wow this is fascinating! i have a new topic to research now 🍯🙏🥰 thank you!!

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Thanks for the recommendation, I will have to check that one out!

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I love the explicit rawness of this poem. I think yoy would like the little known beat poet Lenore Kandel. She writes about sex like it is a spirituality itself (akin to tantric)

An excerpt of hers from a poem titled “Fuck/Angel”

“I have felt the flame edge of your feathers against my most tender parts and I have FELT the Flame and glory, glory, angel, fuck/angel, you are no minion of emasculated gods.

—-you are a manifestation of love and your body is radiance, I hear the sigh of your incredible wings ad we lie transfixed with love

love/angel fuck/angel beautiful beautiful beautiful”

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thank you! desire and sex have been important teachers for me, and i do also feel sex as a deep spirituality.

and wow, what an excerpt! i appreciate the recommendation, i'm excited to read more of her work.

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¿Por qué no los dos?

Seriously, this is amazing, poetic all the way through. Loved it.

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exactly! los dos y mas!

I am so glad you enjoyed it. felt a little edgy to post! in the best way

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All the feelings!!! Per usual 🥰❤️

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i aim to reveal! 😈🍓🍯♥️ & always feel so happy when you’re here

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Its so delicious getting to know you through your transmissions sister! I adore you.

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ahhh thank you!!! felt & received 🍯🥰🥰 i feel so happy that we crossed paths! i have some reading time today and i’m excited to start exploring your stuff too

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Just wonderful, every last wacky ounce!

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Thank you, Wes!

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Just read this and a part of me is disgusted- not even sure by what - the other part did not understand a thing. I wonder why.

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desire, in its multidimensional, often seemingly contradictory nature, is an edgy place for a lot of us.

lots of shadow. lots of cultural conditioning about what's "acceptable." lots of shame and repressed emotions. lots of wanting it to make sense.

I understand how it could feel disgusting to be confronted with a big expression of desire. and I'd encourage you to keep turning towards the confused and disgusted parts with curiosity

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It’s not that I don’t find it acceptable. I’m pretty sexual myself. When I read that I think about the women who just “fuck” around, thinking it’s “sex”, when all they do is rubbing bodies to feel pleasure. How they first see me as meat they would fuck, but then run when I open up the first 0.1% of all the pain that’s inside.

I’m kind of sick of the modern dating scene and modern sexuality which isn’t even real sexuality imo.

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