Now that I am

it hurts not to feel

Hilma af Klint “Series VIII. Picture of the Starting Point”, 1920

Resisting is a bitch. Feeling the push-pull is everything.

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Now that I am, 
I feel it’s been
weeks 
since I’ve 
rested,
here, 
feeling this body. 

Pain, overwhelming. 
The crick in my neck. 
Don’t want to deal with it. 
Avoidance makes me a wreck, 
has me
living in the abstract. 

Tsk tsk, dear girl,
you know better than that. 
Feel the tension
pulling you in. 
Feel everything. 

You know this body,
marvelous,
writhes itself back 
to the bliss of being
here, this moment,
uncoiling rivers of sinewy wisdom
through rolling waves of endless breath. 

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