You remind me so much of myself here! So many things that don't exist because I'm holding out for the "perfect" versions of them, including business ideas, a lot of creative endeavors, collaborations, and a poetry book. They just exist as ideas in my mind and I think I'm somehow noble because I have such high standards and refuse to create anything that might not meet them, but I think those standards sometimes just cover up things like shame and fear.
I was exactly that straight A kid about 15 years ago...
I used to do the perfect relationship thing, but after many years, I think I'm finally maybe getting more comfortable with accepting others' imperfections. Funny how when I was looking for perfect relationships that I ended up with abusive people.
I love the chill together on zoom idea. And archetypal embodiment sounds interesting.
it seems like we have lived a lot of parallels. totally feel you on that noble thing, but whewwwww it’s exhausting constantly waiting for everything to be absolutely perfect. i agree, i think it’s totally about avoiding shame and fear.
the relationship part is so hard! cause accepting others’ imperfections means we have to accept ours too. but ya know, i think it’s good for us to be human together. maybe we can talk about that in the zoom.
I just wrote for the first time in the app as well and it kept blinking green up in the left corner as it was saving itself in drafts like a happy, proud little fu ker.
I had been writing in my notes app all day long since the beginning of time. 3300+ notes of shit I need to do, gonna do, wanna do, did… But felt like it was time to live a little.
My fear is that this app goes to shit and boom, it’s all gone. Paper—>Notes app—
hahahah writing in the substack editor feels oddly daring right?! i’ve totally had that thought about omg what if icloud is just like… nah sorry we’re done here. i think we’d be just fine though. maybe even better 🙊
Woooo perfectionists in recovery meet! Kudos on the messiness of it all. I was a straight A student many years ago too and honestly don’t care if its perfect any more, life. It’s better to rest more and live and try and love and explore! Archetypal embodiment is very fun. I curated a space like that numerous years ago in and through which I met a lover and partner to be. And whew were we so NOT perfect 🤣 ✌️ keep rockin. You’re on it
Such fun, you are like the the parrot in this poem cuz he will make shit happen. You are the cigar in the fireworks factory.
https://westonpparker.substack.com/p/some-poems
i remember this poem of yours well! maybe i’m even a parrot smoking a cigar in the fireworks factory 💥
yes indeedy, a mover and a shaker.
You remind me so much of myself here! So many things that don't exist because I'm holding out for the "perfect" versions of them, including business ideas, a lot of creative endeavors, collaborations, and a poetry book. They just exist as ideas in my mind and I think I'm somehow noble because I have such high standards and refuse to create anything that might not meet them, but I think those standards sometimes just cover up things like shame and fear.
I was exactly that straight A kid about 15 years ago...
I used to do the perfect relationship thing, but after many years, I think I'm finally maybe getting more comfortable with accepting others' imperfections. Funny how when I was looking for perfect relationships that I ended up with abusive people.
I love the chill together on zoom idea. And archetypal embodiment sounds interesting.
it seems like we have lived a lot of parallels. totally feel you on that noble thing, but whewwwww it’s exhausting constantly waiting for everything to be absolutely perfect. i agree, i think it’s totally about avoiding shame and fear.
the relationship part is so hard! cause accepting others’ imperfections means we have to accept ours too. but ya know, i think it’s good for us to be human together. maybe we can talk about that in the zoom.
I just wrote for the first time in the app as well and it kept blinking green up in the left corner as it was saving itself in drafts like a happy, proud little fu ker.
I had been writing in my notes app all day long since the beginning of time. 3300+ notes of shit I need to do, gonna do, wanna do, did… But felt like it was time to live a little.
My fear is that this app goes to shit and boom, it’s all gone. Paper—>Notes app—
>Interwebs 🤜🤛
hahahah writing in the substack editor feels oddly daring right?! i’ve totally had that thought about omg what if icloud is just like… nah sorry we’re done here. i think we’d be just fine though. maybe even better 🙊
Woooo perfectionists in recovery meet! Kudos on the messiness of it all. I was a straight A student many years ago too and honestly don’t care if its perfect any more, life. It’s better to rest more and live and try and love and explore! Archetypal embodiment is very fun. I curated a space like that numerous years ago in and through which I met a lover and partner to be. And whew were we so NOT perfect 🤣 ✌️ keep rockin. You’re on it