where do devotion, the erotic, and human design meet?
right freakin here...
i began studying human design in 2017 and, enamored by its ability to help me focus and feel my life unfolding, subsequently worked with a mentor to become a human design reader. i have been apprehensive to make this public knowledge because i know how people tend to take systems as rigid law & ways to outsource power rather than grounds for playful experimentation and investigation of the inner power source.
however! what i know is that when used as a personal, n=1 experiment — much more akin to an infinite game than a set of rules to abide by — human design is a useful system for self reflection, shadow work, and erotic wayfinding. it is also a lot of fun, which i fond a necessary component for anything i’m going to stay with long-term.
i move through waves of being intensely focused through it, consciously looking at planets and gates and channels as lenses through which to understand and integrate experience… to allowing it to slide beneath my conscious awareness and integrate itself without any focused effort on my part.
this fluctuation reminds me of a paper called the rhythmic claims of freedom and discipline by Alfred North Whitehead, about the way the learning process actually works. often there is an over-abundance of discipline, and not nearly enough freedom for students to explore their own interests and ways of feeling, being, and experiencing life.
the overly disciplined student tends to be that way to avoid the unknown. to keep one’s head in the book, literally or figuratively. digesting knowledge only through the mind obviously does not lead to full bodied intelligence.
but you know, or are perhaps on the edge of letting yourself know, that the entire body is full of consciousness, and thereby divine, erotic intelligence.
this is where human design is so brilliant, in my opinion. everything is mapped directly onto the body. you are invited over and over and over to cultivate awareness in the energy centers of your body below the head.
the system is erotic by nature. it invites you to pay attention, to feel energy moving through your system. to let go of what the mind thinks about what’s happening and to just experience what’s happening. period.
isn’t that what we’re doing when we’re most erotically alive? following the golden thread of aliveness. noticing our response to what’s present. feeling what really turns us on energetically.
of course, in the pursuit of pleasure and aliveness you will encounter pain and discomfort and death.
everything we know we only know by contrast.
here is where freedom and discipline return. be disciplined in showing up. presenting yourself. becoming a canvas for eros’ animation. once you show up, allow yourself to experience freely.
easier said than done, yes. that’s why it’s a practice. an infinite game with endless portals to open and explore. a treasure hunt. where is the jewel encrusted golden dragon egg? would you like to feel it crack open?
all this to say, i am now offering 1:1 mentoring sessions to reveal and integrate the golden threads of your erotic blueprint using human design as a compass for your journey back to the beauty and magnificence of your weird, unique, erotically alive Self.
Love this Faye x
3/5 emo mani love this ♥