you are already her.

you are not separate from your dreams. may the force (of the creatress) be with you

the hardest part is her persistence on longing. when she returns you to, you know because it’s not the kind of lust that only lasts for the moments she’s pressing her heartbeat into your skin, or when you’re three millimeters away from the heat of her lips. its not the kind of want that extracts. it’s the want that wants to see. to open. to feel. it’s the pulse that lives in the spaces between. in the quiet moments. the ache that radiates from every cell and from space itself and from the damp leaved trees bowing toward the earth. it lives in the black silk dress and the pink flower and your tongue. and your fingers trace it into every word and your breath swirls it into every cell and you are luminous. luminous. all the darkness touched by her light. and you ache. and you want. and in this space, you are endless.

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i wasn’t planning on this, but she slithered through, begged to talk to you, to be seen, felt, allowed to glisten through your skin.

though it may seem, at first, abstract, you’ll learn she is real. she is here. she is waiting for you. to see her. to feel her. to let her open you.

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it’s not about who you are or who you were or who you thought you were going to be. it’s about who you want to be. it’s about the burning desire to feel, to open, to see reality unfolding from the center of your longing.

you can call life a video game or a painting or a holographic simulation or pure poetry — you can choose any word, any metaphor — as long as you remember the universe is bending to your deepest felt reality.

maybe in the past you thought you knew what you wanted. and one day you came to find — well this isn’t at all what i’d imagined. except you did. you did imagine it. in your forgotten dreams and your memories and layered beneath what you think you’re creating.

they say the easiest way to know what’s happening subconsciously is to look at your reality. so your mission this week is to look around at what you’ve created. to know with 100% certainty you’ve created it. and to take note

what is here that you are ready to release?

what are you calling in.

your longing may have surfaced in the dream seed meditation - now it is time to bring it deeper in.

we begin, now and always, with feeling.

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