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“And actually, the transformative fire of our desire is held in the act of yearning itself.”

This all made so much sense to me, but especially this line. The struggle of life seems to be, how do you want what you want and feel worthy of wanting and receiving, without being consumed by your desires? This whole endeavour requires a certain level of fluidity and faith, a softness and submission, and a commitment to radical honesty without judgement, which in itself requires sojourning into one’s inner underworld, being comfortable with darkness and bringing that darkness into the light. One must be courageous. Who knew yearning could be such an act of bravery?

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Mmmmmm yessss Nida!!! Ugh I love your writing so much. That piece about radical honesty without judgement... that's the juice right there. What's true now? And can I be with it, feel it, express it? Move through, without needing to "be there" already. That's the lesson of a lifetime. Honestly I cannot express enough gratitude to have you here.

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Awww! Just as grateful to have found you.💕

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I love that you brought that Mary Oliver line into all of this. That poem of hers, and that line in particular, have long stood out to me thanks to my aunt posting a copy of it on her fridge when I was in my teens.

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she just popped right into the conversation... pretty sure she was sitting on my shoulder the whole time. and yeah, that poem was the first of hers i read and it comes back to me at least once a week, and juicier and more profound every time. soul sistahhhs. 🍯❤️‍🔥

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I love this. It’s like wild geese of the underworld. ❤️‍🔥

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I love how you described that!! thank you gorgeous lady 🌹🌹🌹 (why is there not a bouquet of roses emoji?)

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“refusing to acknowledge selfish desire while also desiring to give is precisely the experience of trying to pour from an empty cup.” This line is PROFOUND! I love all of this…love that you point to spiritual ego. It’s that *being in approval* piece that’s so humbling to that ol’ spiritual ego😂…also love how you brought the Lilith myth.🖤♥️

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SO HUMBLING!!! like woah. woah woah woah... you mean I don't have to be all perfectly proper and holy all the time!? well god damn.

Eeeep so glad you like this one!! Lilith demanded the truth!

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In full-bodied fuck yes agreement with you. Thanks for writing this piece, what an excellent read!

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yummmmmm i am so glad you resonated. such a joy to find likeminded beauties like you 🪄🍓🌹🍯 ps love your name!!

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Thank you, Babes!! 💓✨

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No darkness no light

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indeed! 🌗👁️✨

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Fuck YES!!! ❤️

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!!!!!! 😈 yes! ❤️‍🔥

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Really beautiful teaching on desire. I agree that the medicine in opening to your deep desires is more important than simply fulfilling it, because we wont fulfill every single Desire.

You also inspired me to ask my husband what he wants to see more of in me as well - love that inquiry!

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yes so true... and if we make our desire conditional on having it fulfilled, we cut ourselves off from our experience

ahhhh I'm so glad it inspired you!!! it has been so powerful in my relationship to bring new characters in, and an insane turn on, too, to do something that feels edgy and to know my man wants it. fills both our cups

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