This was gorgeous. I want to come back again and again and savor the deeper truths in here... sooo much I resist about myself. To embrace would unfuck so many things.
i'm so glad you enjoyed it Megan... ane yes, it's deep territory, a lifetime of exploration i think. i have this little saying i remind myself of: go fuck yourself to unfuck yourself. to be applied in any way you like ♥️
it felt so weird and yet so right while mourning my last relationship (with a partner who was also the best photographer of my body) I found myself making nude portraits in hotels.
it was — empowering? erotic-for-myself-only? it was fun. and it gave me my perception of my nakedness and body back. because I tend to tie it all to him.
don't ever stop! thank you for sharing this Daria. it sounds like an incredibly powerful experience.. i wish more women were aware of the erotic-only-for-myself space, because that is where our power builds from.
i went through something SO similar with mourning a relationship, specifically with the hotels. there was such a particular energy about being in a hotel room for me. what brought you into hotels for your portraits?
wow, happy that I found your understanding in this ✨
hotels felt soothing for me since my childhood, because it was the only place where I had enough space (not sharing it with family members or later boyfriends) and it generally felt nicer than home. for years my nickname was “Chelsea hotel no2” for Cohen’s song and then I found myself strangely attached to the idea that the world itself is more a hotel than home. because we are only temporarily here — each with their own plans, goals, timing. you never know when someone check out, you know?
and being in hotels — places when you are “kind of” protected by strict rules & someone else’s cleaning service — became the important point of my poetry and my vision.
later I understood that it feels natural to watch myself, my body in the setting of hotel room. and — i’m writing this NOW sitting in the hotel room :)
god i LOVE writings about nudity, eroticism, self-love and everything in between - my only issue is the utter gender envy it gives me because i feel theres a limited beauty to the masculine form, theres only so much to view and be pleased with, only so much which has aesthetics at its core - but nontheless this was hard-hitting, gorgeous, and now i just want to get undressed in my chair lmfao but i shall resist - thanks for this
omg making people want to get undressed might be my favorite thing ever.
i wonder if that belief, that there's limited beauty to the masculine form is something to creatively challenge. michaelangelo (and many artists) may disagree with the sentiment... i know i've done my fair share of admiring the masculine form. idk.. maybe you should get undressed in your chair and see what's what ;)
I'd love to see it. creatively challenged - I think there's room to definitely explore it and I know it has been many times in the past, but I just feel in the modern day that I personally feel that there is a maximum sort of masculine beauty compared to the feminine - that doesn't mean that men can't tap into that feminine realm too, it's just limited in the masculinity side of it - very interesting to me and I would love to contribute my thoughts somehow
i think i understand what you mean (from my own limited feminine perspective) that there is a limited attention to a strictly masculine form beauty. maybe it's more about depth?
some of the most powerful experiences i've had of masculine beauty related to seeing the development of the physical form and making the connection to the work that went into creating that form. i'll be eager to hear more from you if you do go exploring
I might write a piece on this, I don't really understand what I mean fully anyways so it's got to be developed in my own head but I do think that what you say about the strictly masculine form of beauty being imited is what I mean -
It's quite a difficult thing to explain without going into depth I think, I'd love to hear some of your powerful experiences that you've had at some point as well
i look forward to whatever threads unravel in your head. and yes lets chat sometime. i'd love to share. i'll send you a message when i have more attention free
what a wonderful journey you’ve begun. i am so excited for you and what you’ll discover ♥️ just remember nobody ever has to see them. it can be all for you forever.
I love the comment in this piece. You're a fucking masterpiece. This is the best line. This says so much in these little words. You have encapsulated the entire feeling in these words. What a great piece.
i think you’re right, and i am speaking primarily to women from my own feminine perspective. while men definitely experience insecurity and disconnection, it is amplified in women, especially as she is “the earth”, the physical, movement, feeling - while the masculine is more rooted in spaciousness, presence, structure, mission to feel connected (from what i have experienced). would be interested to hear more of your perspective on this if you want to share.
Sorry, but I can’t help myself:
Well, my body could use a little slimmin'
I keep my shirt on when I go swimmin'
And I ain't seen my feet since 1984
The old lady wants to roll in the hay
We turn the lights down all the way
Cuz I don't look good naked anymore
No I don't look good naked anymore
I'm a deep-fried, double-wide version of the man I was before
If I keep on like I'm doing I won't fit through the door
And I don't look good naked anymore
Well, I used to be a helluva man
I chopped wood with just one hand
But I can't do the things I've done before
Well, it all happened kinda slow
But I guess I kinda let myself go
Now I don't look good naked anymore
No I don't look good naked anymore
I'm a deep-fried, double-wide version of the man I was before
If I keep on like I'm doing I won't fit through the door
And I don't look good naked anymore
With each and every passing year
Came a lot of french fries and beer
And my belly hung a little closer to the floor
Now my belly is big as a truck
And the old lady don't wanna-- SHE DON'T WANNA!
Cuz I don't look good naked anymore
No I don't look good naked anymore
I'm a deep-fried, double-wide version of the man I was before If
I keep on like I'm doing I won't fit through the door
And I don't look good naked anymore
No I don't look good naked anymore
I'm a deep-fried, double-wide version of the man I was before
If I keep on like I'm doing I won't fit through the door
And I don't look good naked anymore
No I don't look good naked anymore
This is a brilliant article, well said!
And I love the quote from Anaïs Nin, “We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are.” - and all the depth that holds.
so glad you enjoyed it Andy, thank you! that Anaïs Nin does rear its head in many a circumstance.
This was gorgeous. I want to come back again and again and savor the deeper truths in here... sooo much I resist about myself. To embrace would unfuck so many things.
i'm so glad you enjoyed it Megan... ane yes, it's deep territory, a lifetime of exploration i think. i have this little saying i remind myself of: go fuck yourself to unfuck yourself. to be applied in any way you like ♥️
ooooooh I looooove that little saying! 🖤🖤🖤 I shall borrow!
Powerful. And I think the power lies in knowing viscerally we are masterpieces despite our "imperfections."
I've definitely got work to do here, thanks for the reminder ❤️❤️🔥
yes, exactly! i've found this practice to be an expansive portal into that visceral experience because it brings the resistance front and center.
...i'll be doing the work with you ♥️🪞thanks for your reflection Holly
okay, fine, you’ve convinced me. i’m grabbing my camera.
Yesssssss! celebrating the fuck out of you nat.
yes. yes.
it felt so weird and yet so right while mourning my last relationship (with a partner who was also the best photographer of my body) I found myself making nude portraits in hotels.
it was — empowering? erotic-for-myself-only? it was fun. and it gave me my perception of my nakedness and body back. because I tend to tie it all to him.
and I don’t ever want to stop!
don't ever stop! thank you for sharing this Daria. it sounds like an incredibly powerful experience.. i wish more women were aware of the erotic-only-for-myself space, because that is where our power builds from.
i went through something SO similar with mourning a relationship, specifically with the hotels. there was such a particular energy about being in a hotel room for me. what brought you into hotels for your portraits?
wow, happy that I found your understanding in this ✨
hotels felt soothing for me since my childhood, because it was the only place where I had enough space (not sharing it with family members or later boyfriends) and it generally felt nicer than home. for years my nickname was “Chelsea hotel no2” for Cohen’s song and then I found myself strangely attached to the idea that the world itself is more a hotel than home. because we are only temporarily here — each with their own plans, goals, timing. you never know when someone check out, you know?
and being in hotels — places when you are “kind of” protected by strict rules & someone else’s cleaning service — became the important point of my poetry and my vision.
later I understood that it feels natural to watch myself, my body in the setting of hotel room. and — i’m writing this NOW sitting in the hotel room :)
Oh wow!!!!! This is wonderful adn just rewired my brain. I'll be sharing this with everyone I know
amazing!!! I am so happy to hear this made its way through you <333 and thank you SO MUCH for sharing.
Loved this❤️
thank you, goddess 🍯♥️
god i LOVE writings about nudity, eroticism, self-love and everything in between - my only issue is the utter gender envy it gives me because i feel theres a limited beauty to the masculine form, theres only so much to view and be pleased with, only so much which has aesthetics at its core - but nontheless this was hard-hitting, gorgeous, and now i just want to get undressed in my chair lmfao but i shall resist - thanks for this
omg making people want to get undressed might be my favorite thing ever.
i wonder if that belief, that there's limited beauty to the masculine form is something to creatively challenge. michaelangelo (and many artists) may disagree with the sentiment... i know i've done my fair share of admiring the masculine form. idk.. maybe you should get undressed in your chair and see what's what ;)
I'd love to see it. creatively challenged - I think there's room to definitely explore it and I know it has been many times in the past, but I just feel in the modern day that I personally feel that there is a maximum sort of masculine beauty compared to the feminine - that doesn't mean that men can't tap into that feminine realm too, it's just limited in the masculinity side of it - very interesting to me and I would love to contribute my thoughts somehow
i think i understand what you mean (from my own limited feminine perspective) that there is a limited attention to a strictly masculine form beauty. maybe it's more about depth?
some of the most powerful experiences i've had of masculine beauty related to seeing the development of the physical form and making the connection to the work that went into creating that form. i'll be eager to hear more from you if you do go exploring
I might write a piece on this, I don't really understand what I mean fully anyways so it's got to be developed in my own head but I do think that what you say about the strictly masculine form of beauty being imited is what I mean -
It's quite a difficult thing to explain without going into depth I think, I'd love to hear some of your powerful experiences that you've had at some point as well
i look forward to whatever threads unravel in your head. and yes lets chat sometime. i'd love to share. i'll send you a message when i have more attention free
awesome! talk to you then
Good thing I look in the mirror a lot. I've gotten pretty good at it too, 😏 over the years
it really does take skill to look at oneself with loving eyes. glad you’re doing it Chloe <3
Thanks! I'm glad you think so
i started taking nude photos of myself this week, but i feel so scared of the thought of someone seeing them. Even if it’s a masterpiece ❤️
what a wonderful journey you’ve begun. i am so excited for you and what you’ll discover ♥️ just remember nobody ever has to see them. it can be all for you forever.
Yes! I’ve done exactly this. I used photography and video to heal and changed completely my relationship with my body.
how wonderful to hear this Georgia! it really is a powerful tool and experience.
I love the comment in this piece. You're a fucking masterpiece. This is the best line. This says so much in these little words. You have encapsulated the entire feeling in these words. What a great piece.
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thank you Chad, i so appreciate your kind words. i agree - coming to believe we are fucking masterpieces - this is the great work.
powerful. delicate. absolutely revolutionary. touched.
touched by your words, abi. so glad you felt it <3
I really wonder if it has the same impact on men it has on women. Think we are generally way less identified with our bodies.
i think you’re right, and i am speaking primarily to women from my own feminine perspective. while men definitely experience insecurity and disconnection, it is amplified in women, especially as she is “the earth”, the physical, movement, feeling - while the masculine is more rooted in spaciousness, presence, structure, mission to feel connected (from what i have experienced). would be interested to hear more of your perspective on this if you want to share.
love love love this
thank you thank you thank you ♡♡♡